Do you have an emotional 'go to', or familiar reaction?
As children, we learn the forms of emotional expression that are acceptable in our families. These familiar expressions may not be genuine for us, but we don't sense their limitations on our emotional lives, as we gain some comfort from their predictability.
For instance, a child may have been criticized for overt expressions of happiness i.e laughter or play, whilst receiving praise for hard work. Despite the effort required, the child knew how to gain praise, and may have found themselves in adulthood, still trying (out of awareness) to earn praise through over-work, and possibly at a cost to their health.
Alternatively, a child may have received more attention when they were anxious, whilst anger was definitely frowned upon. Such a child might have grown up feeling and expressing anxiety, when what they might have experienced if they were aware, is anger, and their personal narrative could easily be that they never experience the forbidden emotion.
If you think that you may have lost touch with your true self, and would like to swap the 'protection' of rackets for emotional freedom, don't hesitate to get in touch.